resolved

January 2, 2009 at 4:31 pm (Uncategorized)

And again I disappeared. This time it was applying to graduate schools. I’m about to submit application number eight, and number nine will get done sometime this weekend. Man alive do I hate writing application essays. Anyway, here’s something I’m copying from my LJ:

So I’m only making one resolution and it’s pretty blah: to move more. I mean, I do need to physically move more. I don’t think I’ve had a good solid bout of exercise in the past two years, just frantic sprints and slow walks. So movement, in some shape or form. I don’t give a shit about losing weight but I hate how hard it is to just do shit now, how out of breath I am. Moving. At any pace, just… moving. But I mean it in a broader sense too. I didn’t travel this year, when I love doing it so much. I didn’t really do much of anything. I came home from school and hid in my room for five months. I need to move forward, I want to go places, I want to explore and move beyond this life where the most exciting thing that happens is I maybe leave the house and see someone I’m not related to. It’s been five months of calcification and hibernation and slowly creeping despair and I am sick of it. I am tired of being a burden to my parents and to myself. Moving onward and outward. Let’s do this.

Yeah. Happy new year, folks. This isn’t going to turn into a diet-and-exercise blog because I would probably swiftly descend into the hell of binge eating again, which is no fun for anybody. I just… want to not feel so crappy about my life, and I think getting out of my desk chair and out of my room will help. Vitamin D and fresh air and all that shit. If nothing else the dog will benefit, right?

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